theres a guy that has a real crush on me on school, he stayed as an anonymous secret admirer that time before i graduated senior high. he always write me letters and leave it on my desk or sometimes make his friends gave it to me because he is too shy to talk to me.. i find it cute and romantice.. but ive been aromantic since then so i didnt pay attention for his feelings, but i make a way to get to know him and be friends with him... he was really shock and really shy whenever i talked to him.. i like his personality that time.. and then i started to ask him everyday to go to school together and go home together with my friends.. i let him be friends with my friends too and they all though that we were dating and the rumors start to spread up fast.. but i ignore it because i just want to be friends with him, i find him really shy and never be confident about himself so i wanted to help him because even though i am an introvert to i manage to get along with people when i started to accept my flaws... anyways my planed started to work and we became good friends.. but he didnt stop to give me random stuff and text me about what he felt about me.. i rejected him but i stayed friends with him because yeah i dont want someone to feel rejection so bad i never want to hurt anybody even though my friends always stab me at the back i always find the way to fix things again and stayed with their side because of the promise i made when i was only 8 yrs old, i never have a friend so i dont want anybody to felt the rejection i have been to since then, i never admire myself about it and i never mind getting hurt i always been hated myself but i dont want people to hate me so im trying my best..so back to the story he bacame a little bit strange when were getting much closer, he started to say inappropriate about people he know.. and even me. at first i ignore that part of him because i though it can be fixed. he insults the person when he sees something insulting. (im not good at english so please bare with me)..as i learned that part of him, motivations on my decisions were suddenly fading.. then i began to start questioning myself if i did the wrong thing.. it is wrong to be friends with the person who likes you?is it wrong to stay in touched even tho he is hurting you?..One day i had enough.. because he suddenly became jealous on something i have or jealous when someone wants to get to know me too..i told him i had enough, i dont want to end our friendship that way but i just felt the urge to say things that can hurt him, i tell him i was upset because he always makes fun with other people when there is something different about them and i told him that he must stop being so narcissistic about everything. but after days of thinking about what i did, i regretted it.. i want to fix things up because i dont want to lose him as a friend.. he became part my life too like my other friends..i tried to reach out to him trough messenger but i can feel the anger and urge to end our friendship already trough his replies..i said sorry many times.. but even tho he said it was okay and "thank you".. i know he can never forgive me and i know he dont want to be friends with me again..i hate this feeling.. i know it was all my fault.i just want to have some advise to fix things up when a friend of yours dont want you to get back at them anymore..i want to know if i can do anything to still build up our friendship..am i right for thinking this way and feeling guilt about it? or wrong?i dont know what to do.. should i gave up?.. i want help please..thank you so much.