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Wish I could call you mom and dad.

I wish I could call my mom and dad right now more than anything. My mother passed justa few weeks after i turned 17. I found my father died when I was 23. My last words to him were far from kind. Now at 30 years old im finally getting my life together, but its not me im worried about. Its my sister. She was always the responsible one. Well she used to be i guess. I didn't realize how bad she had fallen apart. I've tried to help. I have help alot but this is far outside my ability to handle. I'm proud of myself for how much i've grown. Despite mental illness, severe traumtic brain injury,, abuse, and untold traumas, self-harm, addiction, I've continued to grow and I like where I'm headed in life. But this is beyond my ability to help with. I'm trying hard not to beat myself up for not being farther in life so I could help more, and somewhat succeeding. But I'm still lost. I need your help, but more than that she needs your help. I don't even have anyone to talk to. I have lots of friends, but also lots of trauma and trust issues. I've made lots of progress on myself but throughout life dating and close friendships have been extremely difficult for me and all those involved. Im a 30 year old guy with mental issues who has been in one serious relationship that lasted about 7 months. Yea dating in today's society is not easy for me haha. I know i'll get there but progress doesn't just magically make anyone appear in your life. So i sit here alone, with no one to talk to, and no way to help. I not sure how much of this made sense, but I had no one else to talk to, so I guess I'm just putting this out there to the universe.

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Re: Wish I could call you mom and dad.

Heya, I don’t really know how to help.... but I wanted you to know someone’s listening and I hope things get better for you. It’s hard when things are out of our control. And it’s easier said than done but you can only focus on what you can do in these situations. Give it all you’ve got and don’t destroy yourself in the process coz if you do no one will be there to help her at all.

I don’t mean to sound preachy or act like I’ve got it all figured out. I just wanna let you know it sounds like you’re doing a good job and everything that you can.