don't wanna die, just wished I was never born .. I'm 16 years old, I'm in the prime of my youth but I feel like I'm wasting it away by being depressed and always overthinking and worrying about every little thing, every fucking adult in my life always told me that I'm too young to be depressed and that I should enjoy my teen years cause it's the best time of my life.... really??!!! The best my ass. I was listening to a song called teen idle by marina and the diamonds and it explains my situation so well, sometimes I get suicidal and I usually cope by making suicidal jokes and saying stuff like "i wanna kill myself lol" but do I really wanna die or just be saved? I don't know anymore. I don't have a purpose or calling in life, I have no talent whatsoever and I'm not very smart either. I feel like each day I get more and more problems they aren't huge problems nonetheless but small problems that just keep building and building into an even bigger one and thats what I'm experiencing rn. I don't have depression or aniexty but sometimes I feel like i have symptoms of it (i don't wanna assume or self diagnose) so Im gonna say no to that it's not severe but I can't think straight anymore it's hard for me to concentrate and I find myself always having to do something to just distract myself from everything. I don't wanna do this anymore. My mom always told me don't have kids it's hard and you don't want them to suffer in this cruel world. Sometimes I wish she didn't even fucking bother having kids herself. My dad left us when we were very little and I have a few memories here and there. My mother remarried but things just got worse from there. Everyday i cried wishing I was just gone. I'm sorry this is s lot i just found out about this website I haven't talked to anyone except family for weeks so this was a way to vent. Thanks for listening to my problems. It's nice to know I'm not the only one.