Hey, i have nowhere to write but i just want to express this feeling that i guess no one will understand. I fell in love with someone else but i have a perfect boyfriend. I know u guys must think im such a toxic girlfriend but believe me i try my best to forget him. For fucking 8 months i tried. but we keep coming back to each other. we know we love each other but i still know my place and put him in friendzone. i tried my best i mean we tried. he tried to forget me and so do i but we just cant because we will always run to each others back. we have been trying for several time. how to unfeel this feelings. this feelings is strong enough because i feel like him are my soulmate. everynight before sleep i couldnt stop thinking about him. idk, people said i have the best boyfriend that people could ask but believe me i want to be loyal to him also. i tried so hard and sometimes i feel like i dont deserve him. i love my boyfriend but why im feeling like this. im scared. im scared how heartbroken he will be if he finds out about this because i know he loves me so much. he would do anything for me. but he is too kind. i just want to cut one of them but i just cant. its hurt and its hard. im tired of thinking about this. please help me choose. i just love both of the. one is the love of my life and another one is my soulmate. i just can feel it.
*panda and tomato*