I feel worthless, I feel unloved and weak. I can't accept myself anymore. My boyfriend says that I have been annoying this whole month because I am not trying to feel better as I feel a bit depressed as a result of being quarantined for 4 months. He sees that I am unbearable even tho i supported him for more than a year as he faced lots of problems in his life till I started feeling drained. Some days I am energetic and fun, but some days I vent out and start crying because I feel heaviness in my chest. When I vent out he started getting mad at me because he doesn't like my way. But I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF, I CAN'T KEEP repressing my feeling!!! yesterday after 3 hrs fight and long criticism of me, he said he will be there for me. I called him twice today, but he didn't pickup then texted me " I am okay, but I don't feel like talking to u today". I apologized over and over for making him feel that way. I wish he breaks up with me and be broken alone instead of seeing him unhappy because of me.
I feel worthless,ugly,stupid, useless.