I would have given it all up if you had been consistently present. I will miss you. More than you can fathom. I fell for you - felt love and connection. Lust and passion. You stole my heart and then disappeared and erased it all. I believe you might have either bipolar or borderline personality disorder - which brings me some comfort. But no one has ever or will ever turn me on as much as you did. We could have been magnificent and worked through it all. Would have moved across the sea for you. But you did not want me. And so, I know my own wanting is for nothing. You deserve your ugly solitude and quiet comings. You never deserved me.