I made scenarios in my head with you before going to bed, just to wake up to the heartfelt message of you saying you feel shitty today, that you are missing her. Did you not, for one second think of me? How that would make me feel? Im missing you and you are miss her. What does she have that I can’t give you, that I haven’t already given you. Im always there for you no matter what fucked up shit you put me through. Im always there for you and you never seem to be there when im in pain, when I need someone. Why do I always offer my self whole knowing no one could ever match me. I always end up losing. Im going to end up with nothing, after giving so much of me. No one ever appreciates the things I do for them. I shut myself out, I push myself down just so you can shine, so we don’t fight. But im done, im done giving my all to get nothing in return. Im done being sucked dry of all my happiness. It hurts, oh it fucking hurts. It will hurt even more when im gone. It hurts me to think about how I must leave you and how it won’t even affect you. That should be enough to move on, to not ever think of you again. My shitty mind and heart obviously have a hard time understanding you just don’t love me and honestly you never did. I just made you feel good, you had e everything with me and that the same time, nothing. Ans that’s exactly what you wanted from me, nothing more.