hm, school is draining my mental health. ive never felt this worse i dont think. i had a mental breakdown before school and fell asleep in all my classes today.
My best friend literally is in such a bad health state and im worrying more about her than i am myself. She has become less active and deleted a few apps..
i can still talk to her but like. her being here has made me change my perspective on so many things. i dont know where i would be without her. shes been my reason to try since we met, and now that shes gone. i went to school pretending im literally okay and was presentable to my family. i dont know if i got this. but i dont think i do.