Sometimes I feel such a strong pull towards you, even though we’re miles apart. After all these years, over ten years now, all these changes in life, I still feel it in my gut - you and me. How could we have missed all those chances, all those times we let it pass. Sometimes I miss you so much I want to cry right then in that moment - in a sudden memory. Seven years into my current relationship, stable, happy enough...I still can’t let you go. We go months without speaking then you pop back in and it’s like no time has passed at all. How is it still so comfortable? Why can’t I let you go? I know I have to, it really is too late, we missed the window. But I will love you forever, I loved you through my twenties, into my thirties, and I know now I can’t shake you. And I know you feel the same way. It’s been so long we often go “there” when we have those talks, comfortable knowing it’s mutual. We love each other, will always yearn, sometimes strongly but mostly just a quiet presence. It breaks my heart. I wish we could go back and do it differently.