I don't think I want to let you go, it's just I think it sounds nice to not handle all the bagedge that comes with you. You're a burden, yes. I'm a damn burden. I know I'm not as good as I was and could be. I'm sorry that, for telling you what I am thinking and how I'm feeling is upsetting. I'm jealous? I think I'm jealous.I could be jealous of your freedom.That's not a good mind set to be in, and it causes a lot of problems. It's definitely a burden. I'm not blaming anyone, that is absolutely my issue. Just sorry that I don't know how to express it to you. In a way that is healthy and doesn't hurt you would be ideal. I'm sorry I said yet another thing that doesn't sound right.